I realize that I don’t tend to mix well with older people. Specifically, people that are above me on the social hierarchy.
And when they give me advice I don’t take it. Perhaps I always feel skeptical that they have other motives. I joined a fraternity my freshman year because I thought the older guys were cool, when that wasn’t actually true. Do I regret it? Eh… I’m not sure I can say I regret it, because my life would’ve been so different if I didn’t join, that I have no idea.
The sad thing is, if my “older” self met my younger self even as short as 2 years ago, the younger self would still be the same. An asshole that would repeat the mistakes against my “older” self would advise.
I think another factor is I like to learn by doing/experiencing. It’s like touching the stove as a kid… Why can’t I touch the stove? Then I touch it, but at least I learn from that. If someone would tell me to not touch the stove, I still would want to do it.
Because life is ridiculous, just do what makes you happy, not what others tell you. Just because someone says you need to marry and start a family to be happy, doesn’t mean it suits you. Doesn’t mean having a hot babe and being rich, it can be playing video games. What’s easier, reaching your goal of getting to a high level in a video game, or becoming a millionaire? The former takes less time, and I’d argue you would have the same happiness.
I’m not saying you should have no job, because you obviously have to pay rent, food, and clothing, the bare necessities. But is it that bad to just do what you want?
I can guarantee a lower suicide rate if every person would try LSD at least once. Yet, it’s illegal all over the world.
It doesn’t really make sense, but why are kids forced to go to school to learn things that don’t appeal to them? Why are we forced at a barrel of a gun to give money that we work for to the government, which then gives the money to foreign countries’ governments that we will never interact with? What’s the purpose of working when the majority of it just gets wasted anyways?
You can just go on Facebook and find arguments regarding politics that has absolutely no meaning. The elites, the people that rule over us, think we are retarded. Yet, we blame both sides and hate each other.
Note I said “We” in the title, and that includes me. There are times where I recognize certain things that I haven’t noticed or have taken for granted.
You might meet some people in life where they are always trying to learn things, as if they are a sponge. They want to learn as much as they can.
Some just don’t care. That’s me.
Of course, when I’m searching for a job, I’ll need to lie to myself and make myself look like the former.
But my question is, where does it come from? Genetics? Parenting? School environment? I took a Myers-Briggs personality test and got ISTJ, and people of this type tend to not really care about learning too much.
I think part of the reason is that I just want to get to the point, don’t have me go through a labyrinth to figure out what I need to know.
By the way, I wish I wasn’t like this. My motivations for getting things done is bad, but if I can get things done, then what’s the problem?
It’s remarkable how similar job searching is to dating. Of guys we know that our successful with women, they tend to carry their personality with them for all women. They pretend to treat each individual woman as special, when in reality they are just trying to hedge their bets the best they can.
With companies, I sort of hate how I have to pretend like the company im interviewing for is my favorite company. But it is what it is.
My favorite genre of music is chillstep, which is similar to dubstep except it has more chill vibes. Perfect music to do homework or study for finals in.
The best part is, my favorite chillstep producers on youtube are so easy to reach. And the music is free. Compare that to artists in the Top 100 charts, you can never interact with them.
Speaking of Top 100 charts, I went on Spotify to discover new music on the chart. I never do this, but I wanted to just try. And I would say 90% of the songs I listened to I actually hated, and the rest I simply tolerated. Does this mean that my music taste is completely different from the public? I guess so.
I was looking at my bag that I used for toiletries while I was in my bathroom. It looks rugged, almost torn apart. It’s not that great of a bag either. For some strange reason, I don’t ever want to upgrade it or get rid of it.
And then I reflected and discovered, that I’ve used it ever since I started my freshman year of college. Over time, I really changed as a person. What I was then, I’m a much different person now.
It gives me nostalgia. All those times I would use my toiletries to get ready after showering… Whether it was before going to a party, before a major exam, if I just needed to cool down after something major happened.
Songs give me major nostalgia. I have playlists on Soundcloud, Spotify, and Youtube, which have over 1000 songs. And yet, I’m sure I remember when I first heard a lot of them. Most of the t-shirts I have were given to me for free, whether it was some organization I was in, or some event on campus.
In conclusion, I’d say these nostalgic items give me a fuzzy feeling inside. What might look like a rugged bag, is treasure to me.